There are three aspects of attitudes (ABC): Affective, Behavioral, and Cognitive. For the sake of brevity I am focusing on the behavioral aspect. Behavioral is how you’ve acted in the past toward something, or intend to act, so say, someone asks you, “do you like to jog?” You might not really like to actually go jogging but say you’ve been jogging recently to get in shape, you’re more apt to say “yes” because you’ve been doing it a lot recently, so you must like to jog.
I was thinking about this more recently because a lot of people have been trying to sexuality police me, and it makes me really uncomfortable and pissed off. I never know what to say. So what I’ve only ever had girlfriends, and now I have a boyfriend? Who gives a shit. I’m still dating a human being, like for fucks sake, I’m not dating a dog or a cat or an alien so UGH. Anyway.
I think a large part of me only ever dating girls was the behavioral aspect of my attitude toward my own sexuality. I was 16 when I first dated a girl; she was the first person I ever dated. I had previously had crushes on guys but they had gone nowhere. I’m not going to lie, I WAS attracted to her, and I fell in love with her. And I continued to date girls for four more years after that.
I didn’t feel the urge to date any guys in those four years really, well, not any serious ones that I remember. And I think part of that might have been the behavioral aspect of attitudes. “I’ve only ever dated girls, so I must only like girls.”
*Disclaimer for social justice blogs who may see this and rip me to pieces and feed my soul to the sharks*: And I’m not saying this is making anyone’s sexuality invalid. AT ALL. I’m just saying, I think this is what happened to me psychologically. Me personally.
Idk, I have a boyfriend now, I’m really happy with him, and every time someone says something about my sexuality to me it just pisses me off. Like even mentioning it makes me uncomfortable. Unless you’re my boyfriend, you have no business asking me about my sexuality, because it has zero bearing on your life.
They started off beneath the knowledge tree and they chopped it down to make white picket fences, and marching along the railroad tracks, they smiled real wide for the camera lenses. They made it past the enemy lines, just to become enslaved in the assembly lines.
I do have a core personality. I’ve thought about this long and hard. And I do have one.
I just like to sip bits and pieces of the people I love through a straw, but I wish I could do it without getting them lost in my mouth.
I always have good intentions. I’ve never done anything major to anyone without good intentions and I’m proud to say that.
Why is it every time I ingest any alcohol whatsoever I just wanna listen to Lana del Rey and cry
My life today summed up.
all my friends from high school are having CHILDREN and getting MARRIED
and im like lol i dress myself in the morning
my bestie she jus speak the truth
school just makes me want
to throw myself off a bridge
this is a haiku
so i literally just spent all night “studying”
aka reading a few facts n then answering all of okcupid’s questions n then taking 5 personality tests n then reading 200 wikipedia pages about random philosophies n then playing with my cat n then crying bc idfk whats going on with this exam